The Pain is in the past.

Life is so hard. Too hard much of the time.

Life is only easy when you're dead.

We revert to the foetal position when we are at our most vulnerable. The clenching of the fists, an enduring signature of strength. The pulling in of the legs, the arching of the back; the need for warmth, a shelter for our mind. Defense by the body is the only mechanism we sometimes have to overcome adversity. But when the adversity is in the past, and the attacks still keep coming, why are we mentally under the impression that the foetel position will keep us warm, and our mind will be sheltered....and our fists will warn away adversity?

I will be here for you. I'm here not because you need me, but because I need you. Friendship from another is when you're accepted at your very lowest point. We all have our low points. At no point, either, is one person's low point worse or more severe than someone else's. That's society telling you someone else is better than you. But you know, and we all do, that we are all equal.

You don't have to hold on to the pain, to hold on the memory.

You are not what happened to you. You are who you are at the moment you choose to evaluate yourself. Your life is a sign of strength. I want you to see that the light is yourself; your own reflection. You can guide yourself.

The dark days are when your reflection is blurred. Remember that your reflection stays the same even when there's not a mirror in front of you.

Cathartic Resolution [I play it off (Part2)]

I was thinking in the shower this morning (as I do), so many hate the idea of 'eternal love', 'one forever' and being 'in love forever'. I just don't understand the pessimistic attitude. Why think that something that can be so strong is temporary? Perhaps even, doomed?

'Youth is like diamonds in the sun...Diamonds are forever'.

Why can't love be? In my opinion, the idea of youth is another societal impression that changes a persons perception of themselves. Perhaps love is a way of curing insecurities someone might have towards themselves. So maybe a pessismistic attitude towards love is stimulated by insecurities. Although I can't say that my optimisitc attitude towards love extinguishes the idea that I have insecurities. Moreso to the contrary. But why let the possibility of having 'love for life' get sucked into a blackhole? I just hope that it is not a laziness of wanting to work at a relationship.

In my experience, successful relationships are relatively easy relationships. However, they do need work, but if someone doesn't want to be in the relationship, it's over. It's like Jude Law and Natalie Portman in 'Closer', when she turns around and tells him that she doesn't love him, and a minute later she's gone. Emotion so incredibly weighs out physicality. Blah. It's all blah. All I know is that I can love forever. And I know that love can last forever. It can work. And the excuse that 'in modern day it's harder to resist temptation and forge a relationship with one person for your life' is complete bullshit. That's a cop out and lazy.

I will continue to love. No matter what people say. *thank's whitney* (crack is wack)

What a great shower.

OnAirwithBlackPunk : Gwen Stefani - The Real Thing (Wendy And Lisa Slow Jam Mix)

I play it off (Part 1)

Ergh. I just finished work. What a ball-breaker of a night! I had to come here and blog because I'm a bit down right now and am in need of some cathartic resolution.

It's all a bit too overwhelming right now. Work is crazy, and I'm finding it really really hard to keep my cool when so much is going on, so many stock issues, staffing issues etc. There's so much I need from the company, and my position now kind of allows me to make a stronger point as to what needs to be done in order for me to make money, but it also feels like my opinion is noted then dismissed. Sometimes. I can't really complain, everything I've suggested thus far has been really loooked into, but I feel like soon the novelty of me being the new manager will wear thin and my opinion will be rendered irrelevant. I'll have to wait and see. I hate having to wait and see. It's such a shameful cop out.

I have to write this next topic eventually. I'm sorry MM.

My friendships lately have been affected by work, and other issues in my life. Friends have left me since I left for a relationship. Since around the age of 17, I've had three major friendships in my life, where I've bared all in the hope that a lifelong bond would emerge. So far, no luck. And it's made me think, perhaps friendships outside of a couple-type relationship aren't meant to be forever. So why do I tear my heart out over something that is somewhat destined to be a memory? I did love him, that's a known fact to many. But I just don't anymore. Brent is the one for me. Why am I made to feel guilty for finding the one that so many cry about not being able to source?

I feel like I've been disregarded because I don't fit into the 'single' category. So many times in the past I've been shunted aside by friends who have gained a significant other, and yet still was expected to be there on call for any emergency. I thought I was a good friend. I don't know.

Dirty Dancing

Speechless.

Grant Denyer & Mini.

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Everything that you do.

So very neglectful. Reading other blogs has made me realise. I'm sorry.

After two years, starting as a casual, then having my prodigal son stint, and returning as 2IC, I finally was given a promotion. Store Manager. It may seem small, but to me, it's priceless, and at my age I couldn't be happier. *gimme a break, I'm going to gloat for at least a few lines*

I just went to the Myer Basement and purchased my first ever pair of casual pants! So exciting. They're kind of golfish which is really cool, but I need the shit tailored out of them. Also I purchased Series of 2 & 3 of Frontline to complete my collection, which my father will be very pleased about.

I'm really looking forward to Jessica's 21st in Sydney on May 27th. The invitations were finally completed and so I was able to send it to her so she can do the mailout over these few days. I'm actually really happy with the outcome. Thank God. I still need to find an outfit for her party, but after seeing Grant Denyer's outfit for last night's "Dancing With The Stars", I think I've found a winner. It was one of those performances that you can't stop watching.

My blog is so boring right now. I need a re-invention or emancipation.

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