THE BLACKPUNK REVOLUTION

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Formidable Reasoning

I’ll make it through the rainy days
I’ll be the one who stands here longer than the rest

I've always been a strong person. Emotions were cut out of my family circle quite early on, when fighting was done more with the look on your face, or the mood in the room that you could cut with a knife. Words weren't exchanged, and fights were never expressions of anger. I always knew that I could take the words, that pain was just relative, and nothing would really make you stop from seeing another day.

When my landscape changes, rearranges
I’ll be stronger than I’ve ever been

Adaptation was something I learnt later in life. When the whole private school thing was done, and university wasn't the greatest path for me, and I came out to my family, I realised that everything can be flipped upside down, and security is your own insecurity... that being settled just makes you weaker. It was until everything changed and that I was faced with decisions to really shape the person I've become today. I thought I had made mature decisions... Strength was a quality, not a measure.

No more stillness, more sunlight,
Everything’s gonna be alright


It's hard to know that everything will be okay. Even verbal reassurance is tough to recognise as a formidable reasoning. When you take steps, usually you can see where you're going, unless you're in dense fog, and in that dense fog, it becomes a waiting game. A scary waiting game, where you don't know when you can escape, or what is heading for you. But as Paulina said, just know, everything will be alright.

I’m all alone and finally
I’m getting stronger
You’ll come to see
Just what I can be
I’m getting stronger

Nothing can overcome human spirit. Hard times define who we are. And if you can be screwed to get up another day, you've overcome the hard times. That deserves a toast.

Words hurt, but I know I've done the right thing. Words I can endure, the infliction can be overcome. Did he mean it? Is it really all my fault? I don't think so, but at the same time, I wonder whether it is my fault, and that justifying the circumstance with my inane logic is a cop out. But I know, within myself, that I'd never do something to hurt him.

Why can't he see that.


OnairwithBlackPunk : Sugababes - Stronger

1 Comments:

  • if i could show you, i would. that's all. because - as i said before - there's always going to be something to SHOW at the end of all this. always.
    and because i know this? and because i love you? if i could show you, i would.

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at Friday, June 23, 2006 3:21:00 AM  

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