Calming sight of sky blue

A beautiful day. I decided it was too good to go undocumented.
The date was 06.02.05. Fitzroy Gardens, Melbourne.


across the street to the park; right here

America's Emancipation

They're calling it the return of 'The Voice' and to some extent it's true. In anticipation of Mariah Carey's return to music after her disastrous commerical failure of 'Glitter' in 2001 and the mediocre 'rebirth' of 'Charmbracelet', I sifted through my surprisingly sad array of Mariah Carey albums. It amazed me that such a simple and straightforward formula of music -the token pop song as first release, the mid-tempo polyfillers, the soaring ballads- had created such an intense following through the 90's. Much like my approach to Michael Jackson and his current situation, crazy or not, you still have to recognise and admit Mariah's amazing talent... the ability to screech at unrecognisable octaves before transforming her voice into a breathy, deep sultry instrument of lurve. Haha. With all this in mind, I can't help but be wary of her upcoming release on April 12th of 'The Emancipation of Mimi'. The hype claims that this album is 100% real Mariah and she's not angry at anyone. There are no more tears to be shed, no more rain to make it through. The first single, 'It's Like That', featuring Jermaine Dupri and Fat Man Scoop (what the?) is an infectious hip hop carry-over single. Listening to her sing, I can feel her new relaxed outlook and recognise that she's at least attempted to leave all the negative media and personal criticisms behind. I'm starting to be afraid of the new Mariah, and what she's allowed herself to do and allowed herself to become. She's an all new powerful performer now, waiting to reclaim her throne. As her voice soars on 'It's Like That' over the bridge she sings, '...it's my night, no stress, i'm leaving it all behind, no tears, no time to cry, just making the most of life...'


Mariah Carey on the cover of 'America' Magazine March 12, 2005

would you just wave as I'm drifting off?

Shiver

I walk a mile with a smile
I don't know
I don't care where I am
But I know it's alright

Jump the tracks
Can't get back
I don't know anyone around here
But I'm safe this time

Cos when you tell me stupid things,
like you do
Yes, I have to change the rules
I can't lose

We talk and talk around it all
Who'd have thought we'd end up here
But I'm feeling fine

In a rush, never trust
You'll be there
If I'd only stop and take my time

Cos with you I'm running,
Somewhere I can't get to
Yes I have to change the rules
I'm with you

Cause I shiver, I just break up
When I'm near you, it all gets out of hand
Yes I shiver, I get bent up
There's no way that I know you'll understand

What if you get off at the next stop?
Would you just wave as I'm drifting off?
If I never saw you again,
Could I keep all of this inside?

Cause I shiver, I just break up
When I'm near you, it all gets out of hand
Yes I shiver, I get bent up
There's no way that I know you'll understand

- written by Eg White, Shep Soloman & Natalie Imbruglia
- produced by Stephen Lipson, Ash Howes & Martin Harrington
- performed by Natalie Imbruglia

Interview with the Hopeless Love Addict/Cynic [Part 1]

I sat down earlier today to talk to a close friend. He was overanalysing his relationship, but it was an interesting insight into the different views people can have on one relationship. He stressed that these concerns weren't to say that he wasn't happy, on the contrary he is extremely happy. He just has concerns to be vented before he can move on to take the next step.

What is he worried about? He has a boyfriend who loves him, and he's happy with himself - relatively. He thinks his only concern is with how his boyfriend feels. How can he know that his boyfriend's love is genuine. My friend can't say that love isn't shown, exactly the opposite, he just needs to know that his 'love' is different. Perhaps it's his insane and unjustified jealousy of all the other people who have shared experiences with and loved/love his boyfriend. Does everyone in relationships feel this way about their partners ex's? My friend thinks he himself is being needy. His boyfriend has loved so many before and so many have loved him. My friend doubts his level of self-confidence (which is usually high) and assurance and therefore believing that his love is any different. My friend stopped the free flowing conversation and stressed how much he believes that his partner loves him so incredibly much and that feeling of love is mutual. He's just afraid and doesn't want to be hurt. Especially because he would never want to lose someone who means to much to him.

OnAir with BlackPunk: Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You / Mariah Carey -The Roof