tomorrow

*an excerpt from Paulina's Blog, as a gesture of love for her 23rd (she doesn't look a day over 12) Birthday*

is my birthday. which is reason to why i shouldnt write what im about to write.
but it is in my head, and this is why YOU exist, for me to put anything and everything that is in my head.

it was just a goodbye kiss. uh huh.

so what the f** was your hello like?
and was there a could i get you another drink at the bar kiss?
or a pre-goodbye let me put my bags in the taxi kiss before the kiss?

see what i mean? the train of stupid thoughts chugging through my days since he's been back.
i hate it i hate it i hate it.

it was just a kiss. uh huh. yeah.

you said you would never lie since the last time you lied, when i asked you never to hurt me again.
but then there you were. to my face.

and you wonder why its taking so long for me to forget it.
its because if you could break a promise about lying time and time again,
how hard would it be for you to lie about EVERYTHING ELSE?

HOW THE F*** WOULD I KNOW?

its not betrayal that ruins friendships. its suspicion.
and i can fill the ruining, to this day. of all days. i can feel the ruining.

*wasn't that a lovely entry?*

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