Be a soldier and fight for love
Something is wrong with me. The stars are aligned in a mysterious position or something. My parents are both away, and I've just spent the last couple of hours cleaning the kitchen. I don't just mean wiping down the benches either. My cleaning spree entailed loading and unloading the dishwasher, emptying bins, cleaning the stove, mopping the floor and even cleaning out the 'past-their-used-by-date' goods out of the fridge.
I'm listening to Tina Arena's greatest hits. Enough said. I feel like Carrie Bradshaw minus the Roberto Cavallii top, Sass & Bide strap pants, Dolce & Gabbana belt and Manolo Blahnik shoes.
Back to speaking of aligned stars, lately, everyone's relationship troubles or yearnings seem to run parallel with those of mine. If so many experience the same trouble I do, it makes me wonder, why don't we/I learn from our/my collective mistakes? I won't let in those who knock on my cardio door, but i'll yearn for the hearts that are already taken by another. We all have a point where we'll barracade ourselves upon the one that always screws us over (aka the person we want). Often they don't know it's happening, and it's our incompetence to tell them the truth. Either their blind to recognise your feelings and you 'so won't be the one to tell them, cos if they can't see it, they're hopeless', you're too chicken shit to tell them yourselves, or you don't want to hurt what they have at the moment. Sometimes it can be all three.
You over-analyse. You're perceptions are warped. You wait for messages that never arrive. You get frustrated when they do - they don't say what you want them to say. You wait for their presence. You start to expect more than they can give. You don't want to, but you do. You want to hate them so that you can have an excuse to never see them again. You want them to love you so that you have an excuse to always see them. You regret the chances you had but never took.
Personally, I constantly hang around for my 'one' in the hope that one day, they'll realise what's right in front of their face and that I'd do anything for them. No matter who tells me, no matter how many times, that 'it' will never happen and that if 'they' really were for me they'd have realised it long ago, there will always be that hope that maybe one day... they'll be mine.
"How empty of me to be so full of you" - Janet Jackson 'The Velvet Rope'
On Air with BlackPunk: Tina Arena - Sorrento Moon (I Remember)
I'm listening to Tina Arena's greatest hits. Enough said. I feel like Carrie Bradshaw minus the Roberto Cavallii top, Sass & Bide strap pants, Dolce & Gabbana belt and Manolo Blahnik shoes.
Back to speaking of aligned stars, lately, everyone's relationship troubles or yearnings seem to run parallel with those of mine. If so many experience the same trouble I do, it makes me wonder, why don't we/I learn from our/my collective mistakes? I won't let in those who knock on my cardio door, but i'll yearn for the hearts that are already taken by another. We all have a point where we'll barracade ourselves upon the one that always screws us over (aka the person we want). Often they don't know it's happening, and it's our incompetence to tell them the truth. Either their blind to recognise your feelings and you 'so won't be the one to tell them, cos if they can't see it, they're hopeless', you're too chicken shit to tell them yourselves, or you don't want to hurt what they have at the moment. Sometimes it can be all three.
You over-analyse. You're perceptions are warped. You wait for messages that never arrive. You get frustrated when they do - they don't say what you want them to say. You wait for their presence. You start to expect more than they can give. You don't want to, but you do. You want to hate them so that you can have an excuse to never see them again. You want them to love you so that you have an excuse to always see them. You regret the chances you had but never took.
Personally, I constantly hang around for my 'one' in the hope that one day, they'll realise what's right in front of their face and that I'd do anything for them. No matter who tells me, no matter how many times, that 'it' will never happen and that if 'they' really were for me they'd have realised it long ago, there will always be that hope that maybe one day... they'll be mine.
"How empty of me to be so full of you" - Janet Jackson 'The Velvet Rope'
On Air with BlackPunk: Tina Arena - Sorrento Moon (I Remember)
posted by Christopher at
2:32 AM
1 Comments:
As a simple human being we can not manage to learn from others mistakes. We believe we are different; we are so unique that we need to go through a lot of mistakes that we don't have to. That's life with a simple mind.
"By the time I realise my father was right, my son says I am wrong."
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